Some of my friends are dicks. I get hit by a car and all they want to do is hang out with their asshole boyfriends or their parents. O-O who wants to hang out with their family. Mine are driving me nuts. I can finally walk and move around and they don't even countact me while I'm in bed resting or vist me. I know this is complaning but when I text or call them all they want to talk about is how their relationship and ask me what they can do to make it better. I'm having nightmares and I have a fear every time I get in a car or when I cross the streets. AND THEY WANT ROMACE POINTERS! FUCKING HELL! And the family thing. Okay I get it when your parents have a brithday but who wants to see the rest of their family. My Aunt who is married to my mom's brother is a bitch to me. My grandmother is or can be a pain in the ass. The only one I like is my little cousin. My uncles jokes are plain mean instead of funny. I know not all familys are MINE! but I've been stuck with mine to much I want some fun and not sitting in front of a TV all day.

I need friends who want to have a life and not be babied by everyone. I can't wait to go off to Tyler Jr College and leave this stupid town. Who the hell wants to come home every weeken from college. I would like to stay in my dorm and not hear my family yell and scream and argue every day.

(Sigh) Any way, Yeah like I said before, I am going to Tyler Jr College and living in a dorm with one room mate. Not my youger brother and my parents. I get to share a bathroom of course but its better off sharing it with another girl. And I wont have to walk a mile across buy's streets to get to my classes. Which my new classes start on the 17th and I am terrible scared to go. I get dropped off at a park and near the hospital I was at on Nov 1st and 2nd. Then walk up to the campuse. But this time I'm taking a long way there. I'm cutting threw the Austin Captile, threw some parking spaces and a nice safe streets with stop sighs instead of a red and green light. Not only do I get to live on my own and not be bothered my my family but I wont have to worry about getting hit again. I not joking that I am really scared and I wish I was at Tyler than at San Marcos and went to school in Austin. I all so wish my friends were more helpful and less thoughful about them selves. I have to text or call someone to hang out with me. Only two people call to see if I'm okay and I can't get mad at them because they are busy  with there own lives and they at least want to see me and check up on me. My friend last week was very busy and came over for and stayed for an hour just to see how I was. I want a life and hang out with people who want a life.

This fall I leave for Tyler and I'm only coming home for emergencies and holidays.

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I am back to writing but my classes will start up angain and I will be a bit busy. But when I have finished every bit of my work I will take that time to writ.

Lets hope in my life I don't get hit by a car or get sick with some illness in the future. And I need all the luck in the world to finish my classes and move to England. They have a couple of jobs in london and in Bath, I think, for Graphic arts. I want get out of this town and get out of the USA. I'm so tired of living here that I want to live some place else. And I so not going to own a car since I freak out to much. So I will take a cabby instead. I should not have cansuled my shrink.